You were alone from the start,
But you didn't care back then.
You were special.
So special that no one could understand you.
But that was special too.
No one could reach you in your bubble.
Then the others came.
They were more special.
You pulled away.
While being surrounded you felt so alone.
Until you were really alone.
And no one could understand you.
Not even you.
You tried to change.
But the bubble was strong.
You kicked and screamed, but no one noticed.
That was what the bubble was for.
Then came the time when they pushed you away.
They couldn't have known you are different.
Are you different?
you drifted away,
They won't remember.
They won't remember what they never knew.
Did you know?
Who are you?
Why is it painful?
What is painful?
Why are you crying?
Another running away
Another choking breath,
Another word that can't come out,
Another invisible tear.
As I walk alone,
Tied by false hopes,
A hole is pulling me in.
I fall into the void,
Unable to scream,
see, yet unseen.
Drowning in thoughts,
no place to hide,
A shadow is taking over.
Another new form,
That is bound to return to the nowhere.
If I'll close my eyes,Will I not see it?
If I'll cover my ears, Will I not hear it?
If I'll fall asleep, Will I be able to wake up into a new reality?
If I'll pretend to be apathetic, Will I truly not care?
If I'll stay paralyzed, Will I be able to hold my tears from falling?
And if I'll scream, kick and fight from the inside ,
will it reach beyond the coffin of silence?