Another running away
Another choking breath,
Another word that can't come out,
Another invisible tear.
As I walk alone,
Tied by false hopes,
A hole is pulling me in.
I fall into the void,
Unable to scream,
see, yet unseen.
Drowning in thoughts,
no place to hide,
A shadow is taking over.
Another new form,
That is bound to return to the nowhere.
If I'll close my eyes,Will I not see it?
If I'll cover my ears, Will I not hear it?
If I'll fall asleep, Will I be able to wake up into a new reality?
If I'll pretend to be apathetic, Will I truly not care?
If I'll stay paralyzed, Will I be able to hold my tears from falling?
And if I'll scream, kick and fight from the inside ,
will it reach beyond the coffin of silence?
Running away from reality
You look me in the eyes
And with complete confidence
Tell me that you understand.
Know what I've been through,
Know how I feel,
Somehow these words only cause pain.
The butterflies from long ago
Have awoken, deep inside,
Only this time in a new form.
Along with clouds of fear,
And drops of anxiety,
stronger as the heartbeats get faster,
for it is the beginning of a storm.
Should I trust a stranger
That knows me so well
And jump into the water,
Even though I can drown
In a lake of confusion
Where my mind will eventually shatter,
Or should I run away, And wait for the one
That will wake the butterflies once again,
This time gently, without scaring them away,
Being able to bring the rainbow ,
With no need of rain?
As I look in the mirror the rainbow fades,
All I can see is gray.
Forgotten dream that never came true,
Got washed away, in a river of words ,
That I will never be able to say.